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My mom asked me to…

The way I was raised..if your mother asked you to do something…well, you did it!  It is for this reason that I have been living with a slight degree of guilt for the last couple of years.  O.K.  It is more then slight guilt, and it has been more then a couple of years, but who’s counting?

Let me set the scene for you.  It is a sunny day in November 2005…or was is 2004?  The guilt has me confused!  We were in Colorado celebrating the 50th Wedding Anniversary of my parents.  All five of their children were in attendance.  Our opening presentations were truly Oscar worthy..we are an amazing bunch of kids. I’m sure you are already wishing that you were there too.  (Come on….cut me some slack here, the years of guilt has me slightly dilusional.)

One by one, in chronological order of age, each of  us children took the microphone to share some words about our parents.  We were all very eloquent, witty, delightful, humorous, and totally brilliant.  (Ooops, sorry, slipping again.)  Being child number four, I spoke fourth. I guess that might have been obvious…?

Anyway…my mother asked me that night to write down what I had said so that she could save it.  “Sure, Mom. No problem.”  Uhhmm.  Maybe it was a slight problem, because I haven’t done it yet.  Doh!   Now, if you have been able to follow all the mathematical equations so far, you have beaten me to the conclusion that I AM LATE. Bad daughter. Bad, bad daughter.  But never fear Mom, you have taught me well.  “Better late then never” will be the lesson I will call on, right next to the “Always do what your mother asks you to do” lesson. So, here goes, to the best of my recollection.

“My younger brother, Tom, and I talk to each other every Mom & Dad, Manhattan Nov 09morning on the phone as we commute to work.  We typically talk about business, solving each others corporate problems.  We are brilliant that way, just ask us! (yes, I really said that…oops!)  and we talk about family.  One day we got to talking about our parents.  We pondered the question of which parent was the worrier.  I thought that it was Mom. Tom thought it was Dad.  We discussed this for a while until we realized that we really didn’t know.  Who was the stricter parent?  We didn’t know.  We talked about a few more personality traits until we realized what a truly united couple they always were.  As parents you didn’t know where one ended and the other began.  There was no playing one against the other…they were truly in this together.  What a great example they gave us.  Like Mary mentioned before me, yes I want to be like my Mom when I grow up, but mostly, I want to LOOK like my Mom.  She still looks so amazing!”

Whew!  Here you go, Mom. Better late then never, right?  You and Dad still got it goin’ on.  I love you both!

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You cannot prepare them for this

She couldn’t speak.  She had spent the afternoon crying.  She was in shock and devastated.  The best she could do was send me a message on Skype.   “I have something that you need to hear.”   This is the message that beeped into my skype stream late one afternoon.  The tears and sorrow flowed through as the words poured out of her.

I watched the instant messages from my daughter as she shares with me that one of her dearest friends had suddenly passed away.  Noone knew what happened, noone saw it coming, noone could believe it.   I knew that she was not prepared to deal with this.

Are we ever ready to deal with this?  Certainly not.   She has experienced the loss of great grandparents. cj and lee stover She lives 1200 miles away from my childhood home so these were family members that were not a part of her day to day life.   This time…this was close to her home.  Lee was special.  Lee was someone who she had spent three years with at college…hanging out in each others dorms, going to school events together, studying together, eating together, taking road trips together, laughing together, crying together.   He had graduated a year before my daughter, but they remained close.  Lee and his girlfriend had recently spent some time over the holidays in our home.  Our home was one of the stops on their “couch surfing” tour as they visited good friends.

Lee had the biggest heart.  It was evident to everyone who came near him.  Just to be in the same room with him, you knew that you were being wrapped in love and kindness.  In the end, it was his heart, it was just too big.  He shared what he was supposed to share with us mere mortals, and now God has asked him to expand his influence from heaven.

How do you prepare your children for this kind of devastating loss?  I don’t think you do.  The hardest part is that my daughter lives 200 miles away from me and I could only give her virtual hugs.  All I could do was encourage her to take the time to travel to Lee’s home town to honor his life.  He is also from Colorado (my home state), so my family members were called, plans were made, weather reports were consulted, and she and a friend set off for Colorado.

I feel better that even though I cannot wrap my arms around her in comfort, my family will be able to.  Thanks Steve and Arlene, and everyone else back home, for taking care of my baby girl!

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Motherhood is an Olympic sport

I love watching the Olympic games.  Summer Games.  olympic flagWinter Games.  It makes no difference.  I love to watch.    I am always in awe of these athletes who have committed so much of their life to a sport that they are passionate about.

We hear all the stories about the drama and the tales of how these athletes got to where they are today.  But don’t you think that being a mother could also be considered an olympic sport?   Why is that, you ask?  Just consider:

  • Nine months of progressively increased weight lifting
  • Complete absorption and education into a new focus area
  • Sleep deprivation endurance testing
  • Accelerated training for intuitive interpretation of a foreign language (babies cry)
  • Repetitive training techniques to enhance speed and reaction time (diaper changing)
  • Special equipment for enhanced visual skills (eyes in the back of your head)
  • Stretching endurance exercises (financial budget)
  • Crash course medical training
  • Training to become instantly alert at the sound of a telephone at 2:00 a.m.
  • Ability to remain awake and alert during overnight teen festivities

I don’t know…Just Sayin.

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Spring is coming!

I know, I know.  It isn’t even March yet, but Seattle has been giving us somepioneer square incredibly beautiful weather this year.   My company moved to a location in the fabulous Pioneer Square area of Seattle a month ago.  I have had lunch outside at least four times!!

Can this be?   Is it really still winter?   Shhh…don’t tell Seattle.  It has been awesome!  Bring on the Spring!

Next up…Spring Training….Oh Yeah!

and…open toe shoes

and…long summer drives

and…longer days

and…summer days at the ballpark

and…walks in the park

It’s all good!   Bring it on!

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My daughter is allergic to cars

No, that isn’t a typo.   Mine is a family that suffers from allergies.  I have been plagued with this my entire life.  Weeds, dust, pollen, molds, yeast, dogs, cats, even paper particles.  (I know…strange.)  My poor son sniffles and sneezes from seasonal allergies.  We keep over the counter allergy medicine in the cupboard at all times.

Which brings me to my daughter.  She has an allergy that is a little more difficult to stock over the counter solutions for.   She is allergic to cars.    No, not cats…cars.

I got one of those dreaded phone calls today. I had spent a fantastic weekend hanging out with my daughter, enjoying the Billy Joel and Elton John concert.  (The boys still got it after all these years!)  She had stayed over an additional day to hang out with her brother some more.  (She gets points for that.)  She left to drive back over the mountains today on the five hour trek back to her home.  The phone rings way too early for it to be the call that she is almost home.  “Mom, guess what?? My car broke down again”.   What??  This is unbelievable!

In her career as a driver she has had to be towed four, no make that five times.   She has blown one engine, had one car accident, been through two cars, countless repairs and many hours in the company of a tow truck driver.

car towingToday it appears that her timing belt broke and the pistons are damaged.  Can you say…new motor?    We had the car towed (for the second time today) to her home town and we will be securing a second opinion.  Not that I don’t trust the first mechanics opinion…but I think I just need a second person to tell me that the car no longer has a pulse.

This makes me sad.  Our car has a name.  He is Geno.  Geno has been with me for almost 10 years, and had taken us all over the country.  We have been to family weddings in Kansas, we have been on road trips through Montana to Colorado, he has taken us to Portland for multiple Christmas holidays.  He is Geno.  It breaks my heart to think about it…but I know in my heart that putting in a new motor isn’t reasonable.

If anyone knows of an over the counter remedy to help my daughter with this allergy, I would appreciate the information.   I think the best remedy is a bus pass.  Sorry kid!

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I will miss him

My son is now a young man, looking to find his way in this world.  He is seeking gainful employment, with his eyes on the prize.  The prize is moving out on his own.  I’m excited for him…anxious to see him grow…eager to see what path he takes in life.  With all that said….I will miss him when he leaves home.  I will miss how he:

  • goes to the grocery store for meLee
  • picks up my mail
  • makes me laugh every day
  • bonds with our puppy
  • talks geek with me
  • shares his love of music
  • is my in-house tech guy
  • cracks me up with his sense of humor
  • rolls his eyes at me when I’m being too much of a “Mom”
  • fixes the broken faucets
  • updates my computers
  • makes me laugh out loud
  • shares his passion for computers and hardware
  • he is willing to have great conversations with me on random topics

I could go on, but I won’t.  Sure, it is nice to have my own little handy man around, but I will miss his sense of humor and his conversations about his life passions the most.   I am always amazed when we get into the indepth conversations.  He has such a depth of understanding on social issues, political topics, and when he is excited about a topic…stand back.  The boy knows his stuff.  When I ask him how he knows so much about the subject, he just looks at me like “Duh…I research and look things up.”

Yep, I will miss him.   Shhh…don’t tell.

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The List

I will admit it.  I have “a list”.  I have fine tuned it, edited it, notebookchanged it, updated it, deleted from it and added to it.   Come on…admit it.  You have one too (or had).    This is the list that defines the guy (or gal) that is “perfect for you”.   Not just perfect…but perfect for you.

After all these years of being a single girl, I would say that my list is pretty fine tuned by now.  It has its “would be nice” column, its “must have” column, and of course the “deal breaker”  column.    If this seems very superficial to you, I do not apologize.    I have gotten to know myself very well over the years, and have learned to recognize what works and what doesn’t.

I figured that I had this list thing down pat.  But, I was wrong    What a surprise to me, then, to hear the words spoken by Sandra Bullock during her acceptance speech at the Golden Globe awards show.   She thanked her husband,  saying that “I never knew what it felt like to have someone have my back”.

To put it in just this way, with just these words, really caught my attention.  Of course, one of the line items on my list is “supports my goals”, but to hear it expressed in this way was like hearing a beautiful verse in a song. I don’t think I ever really understood exactly what this meant.

What would that be like, I wondered?  Someone who truly had your back.  Not just lip service, not just when it was convenient for them, not just when it also served their purposes.   It is time to edit my list again.

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Wrapped In Kindness

I was having one of those days.   I’m sure that this kind of day won’t be unfamiliar to you…Nothing seemed to be going well…Computer systems crashed, customers were angry, projects were running late, stress was in the air.

By three o’clock in the afternoon, I knew that the best plan of attack for me was to see myself through to the end of the day and try again tomorrow.    Then, my cell phone rings.   It is my son.   Before I have time to pick up the phone, I get the familiar beep notifying me that someone has sent me an instant message on skype.  I look up at my computer screen and see that it is my daughter.  I see this message flash onto my screen:

“Mom, Lee is calling.  Please stay calm.”

Taking a deep breath, I pick up my cell phone and answer with a “What is it?”   No pleasantries for me.  No “hello, what’s up?”  I went straight to the parental moment where you ask for full disclosure.   The response that greets me is:

“Mom, It’s not my fault.”

What parent hasn’t heard that before, right?   It turns out that my son was replacing my kitchen faucet.  In this task the pvc pipe that sends water to the faucet broke off about an inch into the wall.  The kids tell me that it was quite a sight.  Water was shooting out everywhere, Lee was running around trying to remember where the water turn off valve is.    Valve was located…water turned off.   Whew.

After hearing this story…I laughed.  Yes, you heard me, I laughed.  It was at this point in my day when I realized that the day just couldn’t get any worse.  There was nothing left to do, but laugh.   I pulled up stake and headed home to help my son. I knew that he felt bad, but I also knew that he was so wonderful for taking on this task and doing it himself.

As I reached the house, I met him at the door as he was returning from his Dads house.  He had gone to pick up the shop vac to suck up all the water that was…yes…all over the kitchen.  He also had the name of a remodeling expert that his Dad referred him to.

I called the referral, Steve’s Paneling and Remodeling, who came over within 45 minutes.   He assessed the problem, which evidently is common with old pipe, and explained to my son exactly what to purchase, and exactly how to fix it.   He was detailed and patient with his explanation and then told my son to call him on his cell phone if there were any problems.  When I asked Steve how much I owed him for the service call, he responded:

‘No charge, my pleasure!”

What??   This guy didn’t know me, but was willing to waive a service charge?  Wow!!  I couldn’t believe it.   Rest assured that I refused to let him leave empty handed, but how amazing this was. wrapped in kindness I had never experienced such kindness from a service business.  I made sure to put Steve in my iPhone for reference in the future. (I couldn’t find an online listing for him to link to, so if you are local and ever need a referral…just let me know…I’ll hook you up!)

As I reflected back on the day, I suddenly remembered how my day had started.  At six thirty a.m., as I pulled through my local Starbucks for my morning cup of coffee, the person in the car before me had paid for my coffee.  A simple act of kindness towards someone that they didn’t know.

This puts the whole world in perspective real fast.   Even though I was having a hard day, my day had started with a random act of kindness from a stranger, and ended with an act of kindness from a stranger.   I fell asleep with a smile on my face, wrapped in kindness.

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What puts the sparkle in YOUR eye?

I arrived home from work, parked my car in the garage and bounced into the house ready to say hello to my two kids.  They had been home all day, hanging out, doing some small chores, relaxing, playing.   The sight that greeted me was slightly unusual.

Not only two kids greeted me, but three.  A friend of my sons was also at the house and they were all sitting quietly on the sofas.  As a mother, the first thing that comes out of my mouth is…

“What’s going on?”

The response isn’t what I expected.   What I got back was…

“Mom, we are waiting for UPS.”

What?  With a flash of memory, this all of a sudden made sense.  My son had ordered a new monitor for his computer.  Not just any monitor, but a

samsung 25 monitor

SAMSUNG TOC T260HD Rose Black 25.5″ 5ms HDMI Widescreen HDTV Monitor 300 cd/m2 DC 10000:1(1000:1) Built in TV Tuner & Dolby Digital Surround Sound.

Typically the UPS deliveries arrive at my house around noon, but not today.  Not when it is a delivery of very great importance!  They were waiting patiently for the truck to arrive. Actually, they were TRYING to wait patiently.

Not ten minutes after I arrived home…Ding Dong!  Bark Bark!   Door opens…there stands the valued UPS delivery driver, monitor in hand.   Oh the sheer look of excitement and joy on my sons face.  I’m sure that someday a girl will dream about seeing that same look when she arrives on his doorstep.  (O.K. a mom can dream a little too, but I think I’m getting ahead of myself!)

After much oohing and aahing, the troops head up to my sons “media center”  to set up the coveted monitor.  This room used to be referred to as a bedroom, but the bed was long ago replaced with the trappings of geekdom.   Hmmm…. I wonder when I will see my son again? Merry Christmas, son.

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I don’t know

This is the time of year that you hear all about making predictions for the new year, setting new goals, making resolutions for an improved life.   For days we are surrounded by these thoughts, ideas, words, suggestions.

I am here to say that I have considered all of that.  My response is “I Don’t Know…”.

I don’t know what the new year will bring.

I don’t know what town I will end up living in. shrugged_shoulders

I don’t know if I will find a relationship that fulfills me.

I don’t know what career path my son will go down.

I don’t know where my daughter will live after college graduation.

I don’t know what amazing new people I will meet.

I don’t know what my next blog topic will be.

I don’t know what heart ache will be visited upon me.

I don’t know if I will be consistent with my exercise routine.

I don’t know if I will be able to take any vacations this year.

I don’t know…

Now, here is the good news.  I am at peace with that! I am at a place in life where I don’t feel that I have to have so much control.   I don’t NEED to have the year planned out.  I don’t NEED to know what is around the corner.   I am finally okay with accepting lifes surprises.   I am all about being prepared, always learning and growing, but this year…go ahead…throw me the curve balls, send me the out-of-the-blue surprises, intrigue me, raise my eyebrows, bring it on!!

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